how often do you find the right person

its the first time in years that i really don't want to be sick, not that i am used to beg for any sickness. Not that i am the most important person on earth, but i have responsibilities and i don't want the people who looked up to me to be disappointed. although i have been extra careful about my health, i am still down. The medicine have keeep me in bed every four hours, so i am pretty much in bed all the time, i am really sad because there are things i should have said or done, but i haven't. because i am inconsious.
Saw this trailer of the movie 'once', really into the message it brings. 'how often do you find the right person...once'

27th April,2007

to tell the truth, it is a day i have been looking forward to, a day when good things are supposed to happen. Instead its the complete opposite, emotional issues, mum's accident, lesson observation, work, it just has been a big emotional down fall. it's not that i am not strong enough to handle them, it's just a feeling that it all happens to happen right after the 27th, am i bad luck? what have i done to deserve all these? i have been trying to rest, but i am even more stressed up. it's been a while since i have a peaceful mind, and i know i am going to need that, to keep me back on track or i am about to fall apart. Does anyone have a good suggestion?

hard to swallow

these few days feel like weeks long. had a few plans of my own in the weekend but didn't work out, actually its not that a big deal, it's just i am a person with "ZERO" EQ, so it just takes me more time than a regular person to cool down. What gets me the most in the week is that mum is hurt. when u see the one you love gets hurt, the pain is just as much emotionally as phsically. i always believes what goes up must comes down, so i never wish things to be too good, too smooth, too happy, never too big, too small, just like it to be regular, simple, no complications, no spider-webs.

p.s. to mum: wish you good health, get well soon, love you with every beat of my heart.
p.s.s. thanks for sticking around the whole time every step of the way, it means a lot to me!

the thing called love

we go way back, back when there were no videotapes, no VCDs and surely no DVDs. And i only have the chance to meet her once. starring Sandra Bullock(when she was nobody), Dermot Mulroney, Samantha Mathis and MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!! RIVER PHOENIX!!!!!!!!!!!! I have tried to locate her for a DECADE but there was always no sign of her, but good things always happened when least expected, she was right there on the shelf when i was wandering in HMV tonight. Save it for the weekend, just hope time go faster this week!

a thousand emotions

Today is the first day of school and i'm still drifted in the holidays... didn't expect the holidays would go this way and i couldn't even put it down in complete, sane language...just thousand of emotions... scared, sad, surprised, disappointed, doubt, happy, sweet, relaxed, unsure, jealous, frustrated, cold, hot, tired, excited, love, hate, it's just tough to swallow. The hardest part of all though, was unable to do anything about it, the feeling of hands tied, uselessness is really eating me from the inside...

Games on!

before work

One day left before work, went to the Ocean Park and had a great time.

the 'warmest' thing

We, perfectionist, always make it too hard on ourselves. What is so special about handmade is that, all the time, the heart, the meanings behind. It's the flaws that make it sweet. It's the 'warmest' thing that has ever happened.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

leave a scar on the floor while cleaning my room last night...Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

somethin' isn't right

well, when i wake up this morning, everything in my body just didn't seems right, maybe i am going to be sick or maybe my body knows there are just three more days left in this New Year's holiday...

the Departed

Have been looking forward to this film, wanted to catch it in the cinema but didn't. And when it's finally released in DVD, I nearly bought it home, but all the film critics give it a really low score so I hesitated. And on this Sunday night, I eventually bought it home, anxiously 'enjoying' it....................Man, i should have believed the film critics.....................

Oh S**T!

The Time: After Dinner
The Place: At Home

Me: I am so full, Mum.
Mum: Take a walk or somethin'
Me: OK.
...............................................two hours later...................
I come home with a new postman bag, a windbreaker, a couple of un un and .....lost a lot of dime, man

Answer of the day

Yeah right! It's a key.(according to Mum) It's a key to open those delicious hawai nuts.

Let's roll

...to do list for the NEW YEAr number 3... start doing exercise of any kind, to get rid of the spare tire...And according to my terms, in order to START, start by shopping for some running gear first. So now, everything is set, let''s roll!

Question of the day

So, what on earth is that?
(hint: eatting related...HA! more confused, right?)

life without...

Every once in a while, you think about the things from the past, the things you've lost all along and there are things continuing from the past, i know having to left all that behind is hard and impossible, and you'll probably question yourself about the decisions you've made, you feel responsible. There are always secret place in your heart where no one will know about, but i also believe we owe it to ourselves to live in a better way. Decisions made, we've took responsibilty, we've done our best. Don't regret, don't be sad.

Shadow

I am tired, finding that I am living under a shadow. The shadow of a past, of an experience, of an believes... It is like once you know you'll get an electric shock from a plug, then everytime you encounter a plug, you'll hesitate, you'll think of the posibility that you may get an electric shock. And that was me now. If I can't get rid of this shadow, sooner or later, me or someone else will get hurt and I really don't want to see that to happen. So please give me some light, enough to make this shadow away...

another afternoon

After another tour of New Year's visit, get myself an afternoon of blog writing, XBOX battling, and music listening time. Time flies and all of a sudden, this holiday has already come to the middle and not for long, we'll all have to face our work again...SHIT. Anyway, this new joint by Omarion is kind of cool.

game

On this Monday night, after a few New Year's visit, decided to sit back and enjoy a movie with a nice cup of tea. This film really reminds me how much i was into sports before, used to spend a whole summer in a basketball court, just to work on a catch and shoot, a jump shoot, a follow through, used to went swimming every day for an hour... now i'm aleady act like an old dude, sitting at home playing NBA games on my XBOX 360, surf NBA.com religiously to keep track of 'the game', just psychologically doing sports and not physically anymore.... miss the sweat, miss the sun hitting my face right on, miss the feeling of adrenalin rising, miss everything about sports.

Happy Chinese New Year

Sometimes it's nice to be Chinese. Because we have two new years in one year. For the things i have promised myself to do in the new year but i still haven't done... I can promise myself again and start doing it again in the '2nd new year'. So here is a to do list for the NEW YEAR:
1. Love the people around
2. Don't take things/people for granted
3. Start doing exercise of any kind....to get rid of the spare tire...
4. determination...determination
5. Start savings
6. I guess five goals can pretty much keep me busy for a year....so i'll stop now :-)

Newwwwwwwwwwww

New Shoes for the New Year! A pair of Jordan 23 Classic. Thanks :-)

Rebuild

Since i got this new MacBook, i am about to start rebuilding my music collection in this 120GB library. Up to now, only a few have make it to my squad, HOCC, Eason 'Life Continues, Ferge, Gwen and Dragon Ash. James Morrison is an amazing new comer, 'You give me something' is a must 'list' !'
P.S. find out this new function in itunes that you can view your CD collections by their album cover...COOL!

New member

Black obsession....